I have started painting again!

My life will be different now that John is gone.  I have to learn to fill my days (weekends) and nights with things I love to do.  I hadn't painted since the end of October or beginning of November.  With packing up the house and moving and then losing John, I had so many things to do.  I have finally put Christmas away (about a week ago) and I needed something to do that I really enjoyed.  I have been knitting a baby blanket for my niece, Devyn's new baby due on the 16th (this Thursday!!).  I can do that while watching TV though.  I decided on Saturday to take my paints, paper, brushes, etc. out and try my hand at painting again.  I painted two paintings.  One was of a field with a very storm sky (angry almost) with 2 silos in the distance.  The other was of a pomegranate whole and a sliced in half pomegranate.  I was very happy the way they turned out, but I especially love the pomegranate painting.  Next I want to paint a very colorful rooster.

Here are my paintings:

I will be painting more things in the future.  It was very soothing and calming for me to create these paintings. 

I have lost the love of my life.

I am sorry to say that on 11/27 my husband, John of 40 years passed away.  We were driving up to NJ for the Thanksgiving holiday with my family and he had a blood clot go to his heart and he had a fatal heart attack in his sleep.  I thought he was snoring, so I tapped him lightly.  I immediately felt like something was wrong.  I turned on the light and realized he was in distress.  I started CPR and called the front desk for 911.  We were all unfortunately too late.  John was my best friend, confidant, hero, lover and so much more!  I really am lost without him.  I am trying to keep it together but as everyone who has dealt with grief knows that sometimes you just have to let the tears flow. 

Christmas was really hard for our family.  The grandboys lightened the day but they were missing him too!  Megan and Ken came up from Georgetown, SC (they live there now) and they stayed with me from Christmas Eve afternoon thru the Saturday after Christmas.  There are many firsts without John coming our way.  We all just have to learn how to make new traditions and get on with our lives even though that will be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do.

John watching TV with Owen

John loved his family.  We always did everything together.  We are now trying to figure out things to do with the family that is left.  I know that John is up in Heaven looking down at all of us, watching and protecting us.  He was such a good man, husband, father and grandfather.  He also did work with the Food Bank, Habitat for Humanity and when we lived in NJ he worked with Make A Wish Foundation and the Christian Outreach Project at our Church.  He was always a giver.

I love you John and I always will.  You were the love of my life and continue to be in my heart!  I will always love you to the moon and back!  Love always, Sherri